I know I can not keep apologizing for my negligence, i am so on/off with my blog. But my absence is due to certain personal reasons. for the past few months, I have literally laboured to complete my bachelors degree program in my university. These past months have really been the most stressful couple of months I have experienced, my heart, mind, body have never seen such strenuous days and nights. I managed to stay happy, I literally made conscious efforts to stay happy, I held on to God’s word stronger than ever and he did not let me down. The people around have shown me the most love i have ever seen, from keeping in touch to staying up all night just to speak words of encouragement. Trust me, you are blessed to have good company.
A few days ago, I got news that rocked me to my roots, news that brought me to my knees, it brought tears to my eyes, deep cuts to my heart. for days I stayed quiet, in bed, with tears streaming down my face, a few loved ones that got the news called me and were short of words to say, for my bitterness could know no comfort. I slept without food, I started falling ill, then I came to a realization that I was not alone! Haha! Imagine my joy! I picked myself up knowing that God Almighty makes a way where there seems to be no way! It is not going to be easy, oh no, it would be very difficult. People are going to talk/wonder/discuss, ah yes! Some friends would cut relations, some of course, not intentionally. My parents, oh, my lovely lovely parents, they would be broken to find out. But something I am sure of is that it is all for a season; for a short period. It is going to be just fine! I am going to rise again. My story would be as an inspiration to very many when this phase is passed. there is going to be a reason to celebrate, because I am not even close to giving up! I am going to shine so bright because I was born a star.
Yes, I would need all the help I can get, most importantly, I am going to need the help of the Most High. I pray for the strength to keep moving forward and strength for my parents to understand and keep believing in me. A lot of hard work and diligence would bring a person greatness, I am going to hold on to this. If by chance, you are reading this and you are in a difficult place right now, know that “You are not alone”. I know exactly how you feel and i know we are going to make it through, this is not the end for us. Pick yourself, let us run this race, don’t be discouraged, you know that throat-crushing pain you are felling, push it deep inside, let it be your driving force. The hurtful words flying around, let them become victory chants in your ears. You got this, we got this.
However, be sure to remember to go back to the roots, check what went wrong, check where it all started, note your mistakes, make a conscious effort to right your wrongs and build it all up from the very beginning on a stronger and surer foundation. Do not be afraid to get help, in fact, enjoy getting help, you don’t know it all, and it pays to learn from the mistakes of others than to make your own. talk to God, he listens and he is always available if only you yield yourself. cut off bad habits, bad habits could include; sleeping/eating patterns, bad friendships, impatience, procrastination and other vices,you would have to cross-examine yourself every now and again. Learn a new thing everyday, Read a BOOK. And you would notice the changes, you would feel yourself grow.
I promise not to be so far away this year. My talents are under construction and I am so excited, I can not wait to show them off, you would be able to boast then and say, “Yes, I know that Evelyn girl, I know where she started from, I am a part of her story.”